i think you got all you came for, do you want more?

never be up and down, be in between the whitest clouds
never did i ever think i'd buy up all the things i've found
cause how you keep on living when you're always but a million down
all i've ever wanted was to be happy and make you proud

you should go if you want to, i'll be alright.

bathroom selfies

rough hands
rough days
rough hands
rough night
rough hands
rough season
rough hands
rough fight

trash

i can give all on the first date,
i don't have to exist outside this place.

bruises from protest the hero

i said, "cover me if there's a fire

cause i want you 

to burn first."
she screamed at me, "i want to be desired!"
i said, "easy girl,
i know it hurts."
so, i'll give thanks,
but i am a liar
cause i got a feeling
i just might get worse
now there's nothing wrong with you
i'm just tired
and i need you for a brand new curse

who will keep me from lashing out? anxiety chokes me like razor wire

trish: stevo's got a big heart.

stevo: i don't have a big heart, trish. i have the heart the size of a pea.

          it's okay though, i mean-- you guys are happy it's okay.

          please, don't pity me. i get off on pain.

          bob tell her i get off on pain please.

bob: yeah, he does.

the only boys i will ever love

i am crapola at studying

so worn out from crying last night and this afternoon
i just want to hide under my blankets and not feel anything ever again

crying everywhere oh god

don't know what to do anymore.

what is up with me being miserable all the time no matter what i am doing

i dont care what youre thinkin baby cause i know what i like and it pleases it me

soft spoken with a broken jaw
step outside but not to brawl
autumn's sweet we call it fall
i'll make it to the moon if i have to crawl

remember when this was a blog and i was supposed to write about things?
me neither

i hate everything goodnight

ooh, i love you so, but why i love you i'll never know.

oh, what'd i say?
i never gathered figs from a thorny branch
i never picked a grapefruit off a bramble bush
and for the past five, almost six years nowyou know you haven't once looked at me
with kindness in your eyes
oh, what'd i say?

darling, darling

winged or chained
i asked you
would you have stayed?
did i hold on too tight?
did i not let enough light in?

 bleached undercut

i need to escape this city before it swallows me whole
there are some things i need to leave behind

"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It’s easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven’t even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

paper money is bigger than metal money.

“I conclude that all is well,” says Edipus.
And that remark is sacred.

fall right down, get back up again.
that's how we'd be, you and me.
i would not crowd,
i would not smother you.
no i'd let you breathe,
over me.

no matter where i go or whore my mind
i'll always stumble home and pray i'll find
your flame-thrower eyes and jilted smile
so you can soothe my wounds and drain my bile.

happy stretching! showing off my lobotomy hair

love of mineeee

i used to make you smile if only for a while.

you're gone, gone, gone away,
i watched you disappear.
all that's left is a ghost of you.
now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
i'll see you when i fall asleep.

i am so goddamn miserable goodnight

sew sad

i walked into the room dripping in gold,
dripping
dripping
i walked into the room dripping in gold,
my heart broke when i saw you kept your gaze controlled

WYNDCHYMES- ISLAND.

wait eagerly,
because tonight i'm another man's brand new queen.
why should i wait for love,
if it comes as fast as he did?

he said,
"wait- she's with me
so send that other man walking
with his two left feet."

now i hate my love

and now the other man's floating in the dead man's sea
and he's floating face-down, 'cause he's a dead man, see?

so stay home.
in bed alone.

i am the most smitten kitten in the whole entire world.

happiest panda in thee whole wide world, me and pat are kicking butt and taking names
team zissou is going to vancoolver on friday and getting lost in translation
lalalalalala

i will look like this if it kills me

i have the cutest boy in the whole wide world. he is a dope fiend and a captain and i like him so much

"For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love."

- Carl Sagan

but i love you most of all.

god you make me feel sick to my stomach.
fucking jerk

haircut tomorrow oh god oh god oh god
please dont cut off my dread by accident
no more bride of frankenstein
rip chocolate rain

how i lived before without you is a mystery

two of my best friends broke down in front of me yep
just one of those heart breaking days ya know
also made an appointment at the clinic for next next wednesday dun dun dun

just start being happy.

me and darren are at that stage in our relationship.
yes, we have bought a chia pet together.

i have found someone who makes me espresso and reads murakami to me
we stargaze and can recite life aquatic quotes back and forth

oh you've got green eyes,
oh you've got blue eyes,
oh you've got grey eyes,

and i've never seen anyone quite like you before
no, i've never met anyone quite like you before.

boom single

what i need right now iii:

- courage
- more dreads
- poutine from pc
- nice hair
- by myself adventure
- lantzville
- a great big hug
- a heart
- more books
- a cat
- disposable camera

you just make me so so so so so happy
oh god
what no

“you’re afraid of imagination. and even more afraid of dreams. afraid of the responsibility that begins in dreams. but you have to sleep, and dreams are apart of sleep. when you’re awake you can suppress imagination. but you can’t suppress dreams.”
- murakami